Thursday, May 1, 2008

I Need Meetings

I walked into the Weight Watchers office yesterday. Nervous as hell. Embarrassed because I'd left 10 months ago at 10 pounds away from my goal (140) and returned 40 pounds heavier. I have told many people not to be embarrassed about returning, yet here I was feeling the same exact way.

The first words my leader, Melanie (whom I adore and admire), said was, "You are a sight for sore eyes." I just felt like she'd beat me up, though I knew she wouldn't. It was great seeing the people who'd been there when I left. It felt like home.

Some people can do this on their own. Some people need the accountability. Under better circumstances, I could've done it on my own.

I sat through this meeting, and then the orientation. I didn't need the orientation. I know the drill. She mentioned that I'd met with many successes, and we were going for the gold this time (lifetime and a job).

Afterwards, she just kept saying she was so glad to have me back. I felt the same way, yet still embarrassed that I'd allowed myself to get out of control again.

Here's to officially tracking my foods, weekly weigh-ins, and success.


Yard Sale Princess said...

Good for you, Nadine. I joined WW two weeks ago, after a 18 month break. At my first week weigh in I had gained 1.8 lbs. I skipped my weigh in yesterday because I was afraid of the scale. I have not written down a single thing that I have eaten yet. I tried (half heartedly) to do CORE but it doesn't work too well in my house. So, today is a new day! I am glad that I found your blog through my giveaway. It is fun to read about another lady and her WW experience.


I know how you feel! Weight is such a tremendous pressure to me. I am not anorexic but I watch everything I put in my mouth to a point that I just don't enjoy the things that I like because of the guilt of eating them. I wish that I could go just one day without thinking about weight and food.
I think it is brave to have gone back. It shows dedication and strength. Alot of people would just never have gone back.

Angie said...

Good for you! I know quite a few people that have done great on WW! And I know I too like someone to hold me accountable... or at least to have something to work towards. (such as beach season which is coming up way too quickly!) :-)